release.

a tight fist, clenching, fingernails digging into your own skin, shaking, tensing, fighting, exhausting.
a shaking voice, pleading, questioning, demanding.
a sense of defeat, hollow, cold, dark, helpless, draining and full of confusion.

an open hand, releasing, healing, calming, surrendering.
a silent prayer, apologizing, praising, trusting.
a sense of clarity, fulfilling, bright, secure, restoring and full of peace.